Welcome To My Contradictions

“There are no absolutes” is probably my favorite paradoxical statement.

I ran but you kept appearing behind me every time I paused to look over my shoulder and hope I was safe

I guess I’ll keep running and denying that this can’t go on forever; infinity’s too long to spend playing cat & mouse

Don’t spend these years, fucked up and out of your mind

Those years still running, in and out of my mind

pau1y:

Instead of doing that, we could:

• not do that

Dude, Fuck This

So this is my rant about tonight. I’m done with this ridiculous process over and over and over again. What the hell am I getting out of this education? I can learn more about what I actually want to do with my life studying that on my own time with my own resources than I can about any of these subjects I do not need in a classroom. I’m tired of being overwhelmed constantly and feeling drained all the time. I’m tired of the things, of the people I love having to take the backseat to the endless stream of bullshit work that’s required of me.
That’s required of us all really.

Want to know why people my age are apathetic or why so few of us have visions of real change or hope?
We’re burned out. We don’t have the energy or the time to care or look forward to the future or have a vision for the world or even our own lives because we simply aren’t allowed to. The modern educational system (based on the public education system of Germany in the 1890’s) is flawed, and it is killing us. It’s killing me. And I’m powerless to stop it.

I’m too damn young, and I have too many good things in my damn life to be losing so much of myself to this antique of an education. But there isn’t a way out. So, for now, I will stand still and scream. I will stand still and sing. I will stand still and plan. And what’s the worst for them, is that I will be thinking. I will be creating. And together we will be things that they could never dream of.

Until then…dude, fuck this.

Holy Shit Really..?

I’ll have been with my girlfriend for 7 months as of tomorrow. [insert title here] I cannot believe how quickly that time has passed or how happy I’ve been throughout that time. I’ve written songs, gotten in trouble, and acting like a complete geek…and yet, she’s still here. I’m incredibly lucky and incredibly happy to know that I am with someone as sweet, down-to-earth, funny, and fun to be with as her. I thought the Internet needed to know all this and that she needed to hear it for the thousandth time, so here it is in 0’s & 1’s. Thank you for putting up with me. I love you.

I really hope we don’t break up…then I’d come back to this post in like 5 months; it’d be all awkward and depressing…so…yeah.

Misery Ba-Nuh-Nuh

Ba-da ba-dadadada nuh-nuh nuh-nuh-nuh
Ba-da ba-dadadada nuh-nuh nuh-nuh-nuh
Ba-da ba-dadadad nuh-nuh-nuh-nuh

Not What, Not How, But Why

Don’t fight for what’s right, fight for what you believe in. Without passion, the actions or words mean nothing. Believing in this can lead to deeds that are evil or good, but the point is that an action guided by emotional strength is far more powerful and definable than the opposite. I’m not trying to tell you what to do or how to do it; I merely want you to consider why you do what you do. Think, really think. Before it’s too late and your time and your chance has been taken from you. Whomever you may be, do what you do with all your heart, and do what you do for a reason.